In a Moment…

Are you struggling with something?

Are you mad at a friend or family member?

Are you holding a grudge against someone who has treated you wrong?

I’m sure we all can say “yes” to those questions. Can’t we? Of course we can we are human.

Most of us are caught up with family drama, friend drama, or just drama that the world causes us every day.

But is it really worth it?

It only takes a moment and your life could change dramatically. Anything could happen…

We shouldn’t get so caught up with drama and things of this world when in a moment your life or someone else’s life could be gone…

In the end does the drama or what someone did to you really matter? We shouldn’t hold grudges or try to create drama in some else’s life. At any moment your life could be taken away.

We should love more that hate.

It just takes a moment and life could be gone…

The past few weeks have shown me how precious life really is. In just a moment anything could happen.

Love your family and friends now before it’s to late. Share love, not drama.

I’m not saying to act like life is all rainbows and flowers. I know life is hard, trust me! And I know it’s not possible to always be happy or stay out of drama or to not be mad at a family member or friend. It’s just not possible. But we don’t have to hold onto that anger and let that control our relationship with that person.

We all have the right to get mad every now and then but don’t hold onto that anger. It will only hurt you. I promise! There have been several times where I would have to leave my anger at the alter and walk way. And if I didn’t I knew it would effect my relationship with that person and it would eventually turn into bitterness towards that person.

Now if you know me you know I don’t get mad very easily. I’ve only lost my cool about 1 or 2 times at youth or somewhere. When someone is about to make me lose my cool and make me go off I normally always just walk away. Because I know if I stand there much longer I’m going to say something I will regret. And I’ve learned anger will pass but words can not… That old saying… “Sticks and stones may break my bones but words will never hurt me” is a lie!! Words can last a life time and can destroy! That’s why I always walk away from an argument before I start to open my mouth. It’s better to just walk away than win the argument.

So let go of the anger and drama. And love your family and friends.

Because in a moment everything could change…

I am the storm…


It’s been a long day. No… It’s been a long few weeks…

It’s been bad news after bad news. Something would happen and then before I can sit down and rest something else would happen. It’s been hospital trips after hospital trips…

I’m tired.

I’m weary.

I’m exhausted.

But I can’t afford to give up now. I can’t afford to get weary and water-down my faith. I have something to fight for. Even if I don’t fight for myself I have a family to fight for. I have to stay prayed up… Everyday I have to drop to my knees and say a prayer and plead the Blood over my family and house. Even when my flesh wants to go to bed. I can’t afford to compromise in a world of desperation. I can’t afford to not pray everyday. I don’t have time to rest. I don’t have time to miss church. I have to much at stake! I have to stand up and take the responsibility God has given me seriously.

And I am!

I do not take this lightly.

There is a adversary walking around and seeking whom he might devour!

1 peter 5:8 Be sober, be vigilant; because your adversary the devil, as a roaring lion, walketh about, seeking whom he may devour:

I will not go down without a fight! Yes, I’m exhausted, but that doesn’t really matter because…

Philippians 4:13 I can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me.

None of this makes sense, but I know…

Romans 8:28 And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose.

So, devil… You better watch out! You’ve awaken a beast and you will regret everything you’ve done and what you’ve taken from me… Just remember devil…

Micah 7:8 Rejoice not against me, O mine enemy: when I fall, I shall arise; when I sit in darkness, the Lord shall be a light unto me.

You can’t win… And You know it!

The devil whispered in my ear “you’re not strong enough to withstand the storm.”

Today I whispered in the devil’s ear “I am the storm!”

What will it be like?

🎶🎶What a day that will be when my Jesus I shall see when I look upon His face the One who saved me by His grace. When He takes my by the hand and leads me through the promise land what a day, glorious day that will be.🎶🎶

Tonight at 6:37pm our church lost an incredible lady. She was a prayer warrior and sacrificed so much for our church. She was a prayerful lady. She is loved by SO many! She was one of my elders that I looked up too. (And I don’t look up to that many people). She had a big impacted on our church and everyone she came in contact with. She will be missed so dearly!!

But I started thinking:

What she is experiencing right now is what she has lived for her whole life.

She is walking on streets of gold.

She has gotten to hear “Well done my good and faithful servant!”

She has seen Jesus face to face.

She has gotten to see the ones who have gone before her again.

She is living in paradise!! I can’t even imagine what she is experiencing right now. Oh, what a day it will be! I know we will all grieve the loss of her, but we can also rejoice, for she has gone on to her prize! God’s will has been done. Heaven needed her more than we did and we will get to see her again one day, one glorious day.

So even though we lost her, we also know she doesn’t have to deal with anymore pain or suffering of this world!

(She had cancer 4 times but she doesn’t have to deal with it NO MORE!)

This song just came to my mind here are the lyrics:

Why are you saying goodbye?
Why are you so far away?
I barely can see you now
The light is beginning to fade
I still remember your touch
And the sound of your voice
You would have stayed if you could have made the choice

Now that you know where Heaven is

You wouldn’t trade that world for this
You wouldn’t give up the streets made of gold now that you know

Now that you’ve reached that Holy Place

Now that you’ve looked upon His face
The half has never been told, now that you know

The river of time will roll on

Days will turn into years
As long as you’re in my heart
You will always be near
If you were offered this life once again
And eternity’s bridge could be burned
I’m sure you’d say “no”, you’d never want to return
Now that you know where Heaven is
You wouldn’t trade that world for this
You wouldn’t give up the streets made of gold now that you know
Now that you’ve reached that Holy Place
Now that you’ve looked upon His face
The half has never been told, now that you know

I know I’ll see you there
Now that you know where Heaven is
You wouldn’t trade that world for this
You wouldn’t give up the streets made of gold now that you know

Now that you’ve reached that Holy Place
Now that you’ve looked upon His face
The half has never been told, now that you know
You wouldn’t change a single thing
Now that you’ve heard the angels sing
The half has never been told, now that you know.

Now that you know where Heaven is you wouldn’t trade that world for this. Go live with Jesus now Sis. Pat! You have definitely deserved it. I love you, Sis. Pat!❤

Stay strong! ~ Vanessa W

What is Hope?

What is hope? According to Mr. Webster, it means to cherish a desire with an expectation of fulfillment.

Hope is a confident anticipation of good. It is not just wishful thinking or thinking positive. It is not the same as saying, “Well, I hope so.” Hope is as solid as a helmet, but no helmet will protect you from danger if you have laid it aside. When we lose hope we lose the battle.

You may feel like your world is crashing in around you, but you must be able to say to yourself, “Something good is about to happen.” Many times you won’t feel like it. You may feel abandoned, and have no idea at all how you’re going to make it. You’re going to have to reach deep into God’s resources, because no one has any reserves of their own to keep moving forward.

The whole thing is a heart battle and there are three typical responses to pain or rejection that deaden our hearts:

  1. We move away from people and God.
  2. We move toward some other source of relief or acceptance.
  3. We move against others.

In order to learn to hope again, one must go back to their ABCs, to their foundations. I figured out three core values:

(1) God is good all the time; (2) “all things work together for good to them who love God, to them who are the called according to His purpose.” (Romans 8:28); and (3) something good is just about to happen.

Hope is vital to your well being. How can you start to find it again?

  • Evaluate your responses to your pain. Get help to find your way past automatic reactions such as bitterness and despair.
  • Figure out the core values of your life.
  • Put on your “helmet of the hope of salvation” ( 1 Thessalonians 5:8), which protects your soul and spirit.

If we don’t have hope we have nothing. Keep holding on to hope and Jesus even if you have nothing else to hold on to.

Stay strong ~ Vanessa W

The worst mistake I’ve ever made.

If I could take back the last 1-2 years I would. My eyes have been opened to see the truth in the darkness.

I’ve made the biggest mistake I’ll ever make. I hurt my Mom/family. Deeply.

I was caught up into a friendship that if I could, I would, take it back so I wouldn’t have hurt my Mom/family the way I did.

I was to caught up into having a pity party for myself and saying everything and anything to get attention from these 2 friends. (Even if what I was saying wasn’t the truth). I would take it back in a heart beat.

Family – A group of people, usually of the same blood, who genuinely love, trust, care about, and look out for each other. REAL FAMILY is a bondage that cannot be broken by any means.

This whole friendship has changed me and my view of friendships. My view of friendships will never be the same. I was in such a dark place. I was NEVER happy. I wasn’t a very pleasant person to be around. I just wasn’t myself. And God slowly started opening my eyes to how I was acting. And it wasn’t until June 2018 that something changed. I was so tired of being unhappy, (which is not me) I’m always happy!! I’m just genuinely a happy person. So me being mad all the time and me not being happy pushed me to my limit. And June 2018 was the last month I ever felt like that. God has completely set me free from that deep depression, anger, sadness, madness, etc. I’m back to my normal self. I had been in that state of depression (I guess you would call it that) for probably close to 2 years. And these past (almost) 9 months has been the best 9 months of my life in a long time! I almost forgot what it was like to be happy.

But, over these past 9 months I’ve had a lot of time to reflect back on my actions and what I did and said. And I can truly say, I regret it.

I regret hurting my mom, my dad, my brother and my grandparents. I’ve always been taught family is everything. And, I can see it now.

I wasted almost 2 years of my life hurting my family. My life. My support. My love. My only family. My everything. And if I could take it back I would. There is no words that can repair what I did. But, I can do my very best to rebuild our relationships. And, that’s what I’ve been doing the last 9 months.

So, if you get anything out of this post get this… Don’t hurt the ones closest to you. They are the ONLY family you have and will ever have. When it comes down to it friends don’t matter over your family. Your family raised you, taught you what you know today, helped you, gave you what you needed, etc. So WHY hurt them?!

Yet again, I have learned a hard lesson the hard way. But at least I won’t forget it, and will try my very best to NEVER do it again. I will always feel like I owe something to my family because all of what I’ve done, and, I do. I have a lot of work to do to fix what I’ve broken but with God’s help I will do it.

You will never really appreciate happiness until you’ve felt sadness.

~Vanessa Williams

God is good all the time, and all the time God is good!!!